| What should i do? I'm really sorry. I know how it feels because when I was 16 my favorite horse died (of a bad injury, not natural causes!) It broke my heart and I couldn't figure out why God had done that to me. It took me a long time to heal.
When I went away to college, I had to leave my horse behind on the ranch. I finally sold him to my dad, because I knew he would stay there and be a great ranch horse for my dad. Dad still owns him but now that I'm married we live 20 hours away from the ranch, and I rarely get to see my horse.
When I moved here, I started looking around, and my husband (then boyfriend) said his parents had land we could build a fence to keep horses on. I bought a mare and started training her. Then he bought a well broke old mare, and then we also rescued a little weanling at an auction. So we are happily back into horses.
I would say just do your best to find a great home for your horses, where you can trust the new people to really take good care of them. Then when you get to your new home, start looking around. Even if you have to get a job and work for a year to save up for a new horse, at least start planning. Making plans will get you excited and interested in moving to the new place, and pretty soon the sadness you feel will start to fade. Not that you won't ALWAYS remember your first horses, but you can rest assured you gave them a good home and they are happy. Hope it gets easier for you. Good luck! |